Fabiola
Colombia
Prematrimonial

I don't know what happened when I was growing up but I lived a lot of experiences that have nothing to do with my personality. I had 5 abortions, the first one from a man that made me fall in love with him and then leave me. I was very ignorant about sex; I thought you could only get pregnant if you married somebody. Anyway, when his brother found out I was pregnant he insulted me and made me have an abortion, he took me to a horrible place and I lost my 2 babies because they were twins, that is what the doctor said.
I got so sick I almost died, I was alone in my house and I started to bleed, it didn't stop, nobody in my family knows, I begged God to help me and the placenta came out, I recovered alone. It was scary and I completely lost my self esteem. I met the guy that is now my husband, I was 16 years old and I told him my experience. During our relationship I got pregnant 3 times and he always requested I had an abortion. I don't know what the matter was with me, like if I had no conscience at all, I prayed a lot but I didn't behave like a religious person.
I have been living in pain and feeling guilty , I know I will never be happy, I will never have a good life , I have always had economy problems and my husband, for some reason can't prosper.
I wish somebody gave me advice, nobody ever did. I want to know if there is some way to get God to forgive me, I already confessed my sins , I am scared my family and my children will pay for what I did. Please give me advice and help me get out of this mess. Thank you.













